Fearing Sex

first time I had sex was with my girl friend that was
a year before but at that time I was little bit shy
guy. So I think I dint satisfy her completely .
iam a sikh boy of 22 yrs old at present and I have
very passion of having sex but could not get a girl or
any aunt . so I used to maturbate 4- 5 times a day I
forgot to tell u a thing I live in Hyderabad, A.P
INDIA.
Till recently I met a girl her name was madhoo and she
found me very handsome and she says that she likes my
smile very much. and my physiche which is ok. My
height is 6 ft and ok muscular body. So as soon we
became friends it was converted in love and on my
first date I planted a kiss on her lips which replied
very passionately. After a few days I invited her to
my house. She came and was on the exact time she said
that she will come. We were siting in my room and
chaating suddenly I started kissing with in few
moments I made her half naked and was sucking her
boobs her nipples she was enjoying a lot . Then I
proceeded and started to undress her from below . but
she stopped me after little more kisses and sucking
her booobs she agreed to remove her lower one when I
saw her cunt I was shocked it was so neeatly shaved
then I took her salwar completely she was naked lying
then I was kissing her stomach she was moaning in
pleasure oooooohhhhhhhhhhh I was getting more courage
and I slipped more downwards and my face was near to
her cunt I thought I wont lick it but the fragrance of
her cunt made me go very near to her cunt and of
suudenly I started licking her cunt lips she tried to
stop me with her hands she was holding my head and was
moving it away from her but ias like a mad dog licking
and licking her cunt then she left my head and was
moaning heavily
With pleasure my tounge was very deep in her cunt .
after few minutes she gave herself and there was a
liquid flowing from her cunt I thought I wont lick
that but I dint expect this from myself and all of a
sudden I started to lick that she was shouting in
pleasure after a good 20 25 min I came back to her
face to face she held my face with her hands and saw
in my eyes and started to kiss me on lips I aws
shocked the way she was kissing me she then pushed my
side wards and came top of me and was kissing me on my
chest and she was slowly going downwards when she
reached near to my penis and she took my penis in her
mouth and was giving blow jobs I was in senenth sky at
that time two three min I cummed in her mouth she
drank little of it. Then we both slept for few min
then she started caressins my balls and I was exicted
she was went down and started licking my balls and I
was out of control by this time my penis was
completely erect I went top of her and widened her
legs and started inserting it went but with much
difficulty and she was screaming in pain but I
stroking her hard and hard her finger nails were
harming me but there was no moment to stop I became
merciless and was fucking her very hard and hard after
10 12 min of stroking I cummed in her and I slept on
her after 2-3 min when I removed my penis is saw my
semen coming out with blood I was so frightened to see
the blood coming from there then we both went to
bathroom and took bath.
There we had sex again , after bath and sex she went
to her house and I could not see for a week after that
everything was ok. We had sex only that once she is
not agreeing me to have sex after that she is
frightened that she may get pregnant. But iam willing
to have sex.